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| 10:57pm 03/08/2005 |
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back from europe...
lokayatans and bachantes say:
The formula for magick goes as follows, reality is duality reconciled into the void. |
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| 02:03pm 18/06/2005 |
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something someone posted in one of my many journals...
Repent, the kingdom of heaven is at hand. Jesus Christ was crucified and died for the sins of the world, and rose again to life on the third day. He is the only way to salvation.
demons, be silent and come out of this person now in the name of Jesus Christ, the son of God, and enter them no more. satan, be gone!
Mark 1:27 And they were all amazed, so that they questioned among themselves, saying, "What is this? A new teaching with authority! He commands even the unclean spirits, and they obey him."
Mark 7:20-23 And the LORD Jesus Christ said, "What comes out of a person is what defiles him. For from within, out of the heart of man, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, coveting, wickedness, deceit, sensuality, envy, slander, pride, foolishness. All these evil things come from within, and they defile a person."
John 3:19 The light has come into the world, and people who do evil things are judged guilty because they love the dark more than the light.
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| 11:39pm 17/06/2005 |
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it was two am...
i tiptoe down the stairs, careful not to wake anyone up... i take a drink of water and leave... once outised i find the floor littered with party fliers... right before i can enter the cemetary there is a large rock with what seems to be a sleeping animal... i am not wearing my contacts and it's really dark out so i can't tell if it's just my eyes playing tricks on me so i decide to hop the broken fence instead... i get all cut up by the exposed pointed pieces of the fence... i take a dirt road in the cemetary to a patch of woods... before it i kneel and undress to invoke the goddess amatoria... after the invokation i decide to go to the green belt that is on the opposite side of my house from the cemetary... inside the woods i aprach the keg rock, where i find an unused and unopen tampon... i then find a tree which seems to have symbols drawn upon it, but is infact the moonlight piercing through the tree leaves which made those symbols... i feel the tree and at the bottom is a hollow probabl;y created by a lightning strike... when i put my hand in i find it stuffed with sawdust... i use the tampon to dig it out... but i don't seem to be getting anywhere so i give up and leave the tampon inside the tree... i then walk to a pond, but i start to here movement... i find myself saying "I'm not afraid i got what i want"... when i come back home i wanted to write this down and when flipping through a note book to find a page to write on i find that several years ago i wrote the word "vepsana"... i do not remember writting it and i have no idea what it means... |
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| 10:14pm 16/06/2005 |
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The union of opposites is a technique of ecstasy in which one would seek to invoke both sides of a duality simultaneously in order to enflame oneself with divine energy. |
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| 07:34pm 16/06/2005 |
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unlocking the keys of space version 1
1. draw out the sigil (an 'A', but instead of one line through the centre draw four) 2. knock... it was a bullet not your hand... knock again... your head is glass and now it's broken... let all that fluid spill out... your brains are everywhere... 3. your eyes tear blood and everything is distorted... as you shake your head your vision lags... 4. put your hand before your eyes and pull your hand along with your consciousness forward...
version 2
1. draw out the sigil (an 'A', but instead of one line through the centre draw four) 2. knock twice... here them as bullets... 3. you were shot... your glass brain shatters... 4. the glass is blood... let your eyes tear from it... 5. the world lags behind your movement... 6. let space shift as you please... 7. let your hand rise in front of you like a punch or _ _... let it not stop, but keep going flowing forward out along with your consciousness... 8. real is what you make it... 9. put your hand before your eyes and pull it forward... pull your consciousness with it... 10. your head is a broken glasss and your brains are spilling out...
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| 09:00am 16/06/2005 |
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The singular experience which that is consciousness can be divided into two.
- The first principle is causal. It is undifferentiated and creates the illusion of time.
- The second principle is synchronic. It separates the world in terms of attributes and it eternally expands outward creating the illusion of matter, space, and ideas. The second principle is a capacity and mitigates the flow of the first principle. It's like a window that gives sunlight a square shape.
The causal principle flowing into the synchronic is ecstasy. Emptiness. The synchronic principle flowing into the causal is will. Direct Action. The synchronic principle flowing into the synchronic is judgement. Ego. The causal principle flowing into the causal is love. Happiness.
Will is judgement projected. Love is ecstasy projected. Ecstasy is formless judgement. Love is formless will.
The consciousness, the synchronic principle, the causal principle, will, ecstasy, judgement, and love come together as the seven-fold nature of reality... |
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| 11:06pm 14/06/2005 |
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seven stages of innitiation: gate 1 intellectualizing gate 2 cleverness and creativity gate 3 niceness gate 4 armor gate 5 ability to act gate 6 critical judgement gate 7 persona |
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| 08:11pm 25/05/2005 |
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the story:
93 years before the Pole Shift students of astrology and alchemy uncovering the existance of a lost arctic society from the map of a 16th century Turkish explorer named Piri Reis. These mystic were very much involved in the third reich and they saw in Antarctica a potential steping stone in the war. As the war aproached an end they began aktion adlerflug which entailed takeing the money confiscated from jews andother enemies of the state and channeling it to banks and corporations in other countries. At the same time they built an arctic base in a section of antarctica known as Queen Maud which had been named Neuschwabenlandt. After the incarnation that razed europe fell, the plan was to rebuild the empire on the comming pole shift . They used mystical concentration techniques in order to carry out orders with cold perfection and so they could bear the most austere conditions. They seek to rebuild the world as an aristocracy where they would rule as god-kings. These mystic wariors would rule by ritual and would resurrect the zeitgeist of days no long forgotten. |
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| 07:07pm 17/05/2005 |
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a partially autistic boy named blair welling whose awkward silence when people communicated with him which got him kicked out of my boyfriends uncle's house drew the following three tables on the back of a computer manual... is it what i think it is?
qv2gy ftt6h pxtry vf347. chxh6 dads
vvvch gq4h7 xjmm4 bbw9g 4dg6q mine
128527 579150 626713 555925 378341 111854 110506
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| 11:02pm 11/05/2005 |
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my family crest Leliwa (leliva)
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| 10:24am 02/02/2005 |
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The name Amitoria is a bastardization of the name of a girl from india who requested me to work some black mojo for her, as well as amatoria with an 'i' replacing the 'a'. Amitoria means ecstasy, dissolving all form.
Asatham (Arzavaam, RZVM) is Amitoria's opposing polarity, representing will and actualized desires.
Vepsana is the black virgo, the mind dissociated from reality manifesting as critical judgement. Vepsana is the consort of Asatham. |
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| 04:15pm 01/01/2005 |
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